`take my HAND* NEVER let go-

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Monday, February 28, 2005
1:50 PM

Life is never easy.
When will this cease?
There's always ups n downs.
Its makin mi drown. Im struggling now.
Y cant we see the gd side of everything?
To make things easier than wat we think.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Sunday, February 27, 2005
10:51 PM

geez... i think im goin crazy soon. argh. i always feel so down when im at nite. guess tts when i feel lonely bah. den tend to think abt lots of things. sian. im in hols liao. i feel like goin overseas. hmm. i just need something to occupy mi. one week. argh. ytd slept quite late. 2plus den woke up at 7plus. went to church den after tt went to suntec. den back hm at 2plus n slept till 6plus. so tired. den went to my grandma's house. luckily i didnt attend mass ytd. if not i wont b goin to church today. guess i will make it a point to attend chinese mass. wat my mum said was quite true. i dun mind goin to mass on sat n sun. but i think after mpm if i go attend mass most probably if im lazy or no lector on sun i dun think i will go chinese mass liao.
argh. y cant i stop thinkin abt it?

remember the day we first met?
remember the day we first spoke?
remember the days we spent together?
guess all is in the past already.
what left are just memories.
but still they will be etched in my mind.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Saturday, February 26, 2005
10:14 PM

hmm. i also dunno wat to write oso leh. so mani things happenin ard. nvm. shall blog abt my life den. guess i also dunno wat im thinkin n feelin abt lor. i can b so high at one moment n den feel so down after down. argh. i guess onli my close fren knows y. i thank her for being there for mi always.

fri. went to sch as usual. den after tt bio lecture was supposingly to b 2hrs but our lecturer ended early. so we got 4hrs break. was thinkin of not goin for the last lecture but well i went. its kinda of stupid la. wait for 4hrs just for 1hr. so mi n letty went to play pool at amk central. after tt back to sch for tt lecture. after tt i went to central again to find aloy n jeremy b4 goin to church. n after church, we went to amk mac till 10plus like tt den headed back hm. so tts all for my day. i spent so much on transport goin to the same place over n over. haha. i think i took 6trips to the same place. lol. break record.

sat. went out to town at 11plus. wanted to watch movie but ended up we didnt coz of the timeslot. well, so we went walkin ard till 2plus. den took a cab to ctk. reached there on time. so after mpm, went to my uncle's house for dinner den im back hm. im feelin so tired. yawn~ bye!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Thursday, February 24, 2005
9:32 PM

finally ica is over. nxt week is break already. freedom. haha. i hate icas. ytd do the project till 12plus. sian lor. i hate it. hmm. now im feelin abit down. but im super high in sch. guess i haf to switch back my mood for now. argh. something's troubling mi.

okok. back. my mood is slightly better now. haha. okok. so i will talk abt today. letty said im havin fever this week. lol. since monday. its not those fever la. another type ya? i guess some of u will know. i guess im just too stress la. so haf to talk abt it. lol. but im abit lazy to type everything out. lol.

now busy sia. n ya. ppl say i becum thinner sia. got 2 ppl say tt liao. jialat sia. i bth. muz eat more liao. at first one say i dun blieve sia. now 2. dotx. ok. gtg. bye!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Tuesday, February 22, 2005
9:56 PM

i failed my skills assessment. haha. ok la. i passed oral med but failed at my dressing. contamined. nvm den. i was the last one. so stress outside. haha. somemore our lecturer was pissed off. well, nth to say oso. luckily im not stress inside. but its ok la. made some errors etc. so i flunked it. yet i went out of the room, i was smiling. lol. everyone thought i passed but i told them i failed but no one believed mi. haha. we just haf to get over it ya? we learn from our mistakes mah. somemore at least i know where's my mistakes so nxt time i wont do it again. hopefully ya. lol. thought no staples but ended up i got it. well, just treat it as a practise lor. we learn when we fall. anyway, tml got no sch. haha. shiok but den muz do proj.

proj work really suxs. my mood was quite gd den but after sch when they kept on askin abt proj i just got abit of moodswing already. but i switched back after tt. haha. went to the library to get more info bout the drugs we will b doin for our ica. den headed to do the proj wif letty. tml still need to do. argh. actually i got so much to grumble yet i dun wish to grumble it here. bye!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Monday, February 21, 2005
9:50 PM

i forgot to blog bout today's elective. so sian abt it. i got called again. wat the heck. luckily i was present. forgot if i got blog abt this b4. tt time pon ten n i got called but i wasnt there den got marked absence. wah piang the percentage is so high sia. 6.3% if im not wrong. so bo bian. cannot pon liao. diff lecturer somemore. argh. stupid. n there's another thing. we actually got sub grps but den the lecturer split us. wat the heck. its ok if we are wif the others but we got someone else. anti. shall not talk abt it liao.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

so sian rite now. sch's been alrite i guess. somehow my day was gd n bad. hmm. contradicting. im just in a dilemma. cant blame mi. so mani things happenin ard mi. i feel so weird. tml is my clinical assessment already. argh. drug drug drug. dressing dressing dressing. im so scared tt i will flunk. not enuff practise etc. hope everything will end fast. somemore im the last one. dotx. okie. i will end here. bye! god bless everyone!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Sunday, February 20, 2005
12:26 PM

okie. since i got the time now i shall blog. if not this week starts, hectic life again. skills assessment on tues den ica on thurs. sianified. my skills suxs. im worryin rite now. my drug card haven do yet. jialat sia. argh. guess this week i will b busy oso. so, i will just gif myself a break today. shall slp at hm. becum pig. whahaha.

fri. went to sch for lecture at 1010. den actually got bio sci frm 12-2 but its cancelled. so we got break frm 11-3. so we went for a movie b4 comin back to sch. so lab was frm 3-4 den went to eat b4 headin for lecture again at 5. haha. cant believe tt i went for lecture. at lecture hall saw lynette. wanted to ask her if she's goin for charismatic anot but she didnt hear mi. den i went to toilet n i met her there. n we decided to go for charismatic. asked aloy n jeremy along n we met them at s11 for dinner. it was quite a long day wif diff mood at diff time. haha.

sat. went for maranatha at 3 till ard 5.30. den my dad came to fetch mi to my uncle's house for dinner. den after tt i went back to church at 7.30 for youth mass. mass ended at ard 9plus den we went to bishan cafe cartel to chill out. slacked till almost 12. we played some stupid games. loser haf to eat. gross part was bread wif melted ice cream plus olive oil, salt, chilli flakes, butter n some lime juice thingy. haha. sian lor. i lost so mani times.

sun. went for mass at 8.15am. actually dun wan to go liao since i went for youth mass on sat. but den its my turn to b lector. argh. so bo bian. haha. today i made some stupid mistakes when i went up. lol. shall not talk about it. im feelin so tired now. slept at 2 n woke up at 7plus. n tml is gonna b sch again. HECTIC life again. argh.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Thursday, February 17, 2005
10:15 PM

time flies. hectic week i haf been goin thru. finally its comin to an end. i need my weekends. den nxt week is another battle again. lol. this week really been busy. icas haf been drivin mi crazy. luckily one load off but there's more to come again. today ica suxs. we didnt do well. lecturer was in bad mood i guess. first thing already pissed off. made all of us no mood also. wah piang. she bad mood also no need like tt. but well, its over. shall not think abt it. everyday i haf been stayin at sch till 5plus or 6 den slept at 1plus n wakin up early. ytd nite was the worst. rushed everything till 2plus den slept at 3 n woke up at 7plus.

today i got back my sleep. haha. actually was thinkin of comin hm immediately to slp. clz ended at 1 but my fren comin my house. so after they went off, i headed to dreamland. haha. slept frm 6 till 8plus. i skipped my dinner. its almost 1030pm n i haven haf my dinner yet. n talkin abt my meals, i think i only had breakfast till now. oh my gosh. tts bad. guess i haf to buy dinner later. had half of the sandwich n a cup of milo for breakfast n it lasted mi till now.

i miss shoppin n movies. this whole week no time for all this. argh. den nxt week got ica again. n my skills assessment is also nxt week. guess i haf to wait till my sch break den finally i can take a break. den after break everything will start again. argh. i hate this semester. so busy sia.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Friday, February 11, 2005
11:46 PM

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

ok. its cny already. so fast sia. n i haven been bloggin again. too busy bai nian tts y. this week been busy but enjoyable.

mon. went out wif my clzmates after sch. went to sakura to eat den after we went to partyworld.

tues. cny eve. went to sch in the morn den after went hm to do more spring cleanin. after tt to my grandmother's house for reunion dinner.

wed. cny. went to church in the morn. den to my grandmother's house. den to my other relative's house. n again to another relative's house. den back to my grandmother's house again for dinner.

thurs. went to aljunied in the afternoon den to bishan n back to my grandmother's house for another reunion dinner wif other relatives.

fri. went to sch. actually pon ten one. den after tt my frens came over to my house. den after dinner at my grandmother's house, went to church.

tts all for the week. haha. short n sweet. n ya. i lost for 3 consecutive days. lol. tml i will b goin to my fren's house. hope i win money this time. haha. okie. gtg. bye!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Sunday, February 06, 2005
11:35 PM

ok. this sucks. i type my whole entry n it got deleted. argh. stupid. nvm. it will b shorten den.
so long didnt blog liao so come n blog. haha. do some spring cleanin for it.

ok. now i got no mood to type. i type so long den got deleted. argh. so sian. shall blog nxt time. i spent so much time on it just now.

n ya. my house tv is spoil. lol. time for a new one. bye!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Tuesday, February 01, 2005
8:25 PM

yesterday jog was bad. haha. i threw up. tts the second time i vomited in my entire life caused frm joggin. lol. once was actually last yr when i jogged wif my dad after quite a long time i didnt jog. tt was the worst. i threw up twice if im not wrong. really bad. was really tired n giddy. almost fainted. haha. my dad was so worried. lol. so frm den on i dun rmb goin to jog wif my dad animore. b4 tt used to jog wif my dad but i think we got lazy n stopped. n so last week on fri i went to jog wif my bro. we got the motivation. lol. but nth happened. just ytd i vomited. i think its either i force myself too much or my food haven digest bah. n just when i started to jog, i felt pain at my left abdominal. its the same sign when i first vomited. lol. okok. shall stop abt this vomitin stuff. got things to do liao. bye!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*